51 year old in the USA

I have a minor hypospadias round about the position where a normal frenulum would appear. The opening is covered by a thin flap of skin, and the glans itself is kind of flat and flared on the front. Apparently, I was circumcised shortly after birth.

I am able to urinate standing with a spraying stream, though I usually sit in the mornings, rather than irritate my wife with the clean-up! I have normal erections, and no chordee or any other abnormalities, except that my penis is small in size. Under normal non-erect conditions, little or no penile shaft appears, just the glans. Fully erect, my penis is usually about five inches long. I don't have a girth measurement, but it is proportionately slender. I have often wondered if my hypospadias and small penis size are related. From what I read, there's some truth to that idea. Sexually, I am able to function normally. I have a grown son, who has neither hypospadias nor a small penis.

I guess I was first aware of my difference at eight years, when I saw my friend urinating out the very tip of his penis, while I urinated from somewhere out of the underside. Neither of us thought anything of it, except when my mother complained a lot that I wasn't careful enough and tended to splatter everywhere. Well, I never have been quite sure which direction the stream will take, so it's hard to aim. Usually, it goes about 20 degrees to the left and mostly forward rather than down. Primarily, it still goes that way. It wasn't until I was in my early twenties that Gray's Anatomy helped clarify this for me. I was very glad to discover my hypospadias didn't open somewhere in the middle of the penile shaft! However, the ability to have a nice straight stream when you urinate is something most men probably never even have to think about. It’s even worse when your penis is small, and the stream slows a little with age; dribbling on your shoes, or worse, on your clothes in a public place is not fun. That can be very frustrating and a bit humiliating, especially since it's something you don’t have a whole lot of control over. I certainly wouldn't have wanted to be this way, but since nothing short of major plastic surgery will fix it, I live with it. I don't consider it a handicap by any means, just something to be "worked around." Sexually, my small penis was one reason (among others), for my ambivalence about dating and mixing with girls, but now, after fifty-one years of living with my penis, I have come to terms with it. I am able to function normally, and satisfy my partner. Our sex life is completely satisfying for us both, and I have a normal ejaculation in both quality and quantity.